i can't take my eyes off of you

It was our 2-year anniversary of the day we met. J gave me a dozen roses and a card and I made spiced shrimp and we remembered the day we met. It inspired me to read those entries. My, but I was insane. Meeting J threw me into a tailspin that is clearly documented - I ran around declaring I was in love and then went out with that random other guy to test my feelings - definitely an aberration in good judgment.

As I have often said, meeting J was the best thing that ever happened to me. I marvel at our luck on a daily basis. How did I get so lucky? I spent many years of my life dabbling with Mr. Wrong and Mr. Really Wrong and I almost convinced myself that maybe that was all I could hope for. Maybe I'd have to settle.

Fuck that!

I want to tell my single friends to avoid the mistake I made. Don't despair. Live it up while you can, be selfish while you can, and have faith that someday you'll find someone so amazing you want to put them first. I don't know HOW people find each other - (if I hadn't gone swimming that day, would J and I not be together tonight?) but I know it happens. It will happen to you.

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I had a job interview today - let's all cross our fingers! I need a job.

Studying is getting grimmer by the day. This is a test of endurance, a mental marathon. I started studying for this exam in the middle of May. I have 2 weeks left -I need to kick it up a notch. And yet I am so tired. So tired of studying all day every day. Every morning I open my eyes and feel instantly morose about the day of studying in front of me.